I had it all together. That's what bothers me. I had everything in its place. I was working out twice a day. I was doing well in classes. I had a friend group people dreamed about . Everything was perfect. I knew it wouldn't last. But gosh darn it, I enjoyed every minute of it. I was thriving. And then that moment ended...
In my mind tragedy struck when I injured my foot. The pain was unbearable and the inconvenience was annoying. What happened to my perfect life? Well in short... life happened. Our lives go in seasons, it's all about the ups and downs and what we do with ourselves while we're in them. I still have an incredible group of friends who love and care for me dearly. While I'm struggling in classes, it's not the end of the world, and I'm not failing. I'm just not getting straight As. As for working out, I'm learning that eating healthy is just as important. Of course as I say that I have a large bag of pretzel M&Ms and blueberry lemonade in my room... We all fall. It's what we do next that defines our true character. I'm not the kind of person to give up easily. And let me tell you... I was ready to give up this week. I was prepared to toss in the towel. I was done. Emotionally, Spiritually, Mentally, and Physically. Then I find out I've moved into the wrong dorm room and I have to move again. That's when something crazy happened... I started laughing. Yes laughing maybe with a few tears of sadness and frustration too. There was so much going on, I was overwhelmed and exhausted. And then this final straw happens. And here I am laughing? Yes. Because that's when I realized, that's life. You're gonna fail. You're gonna get injured. You're gonna hurt. And yes, you're gonna move. Life is crazy and wild and stressful and beautiful. It's time we stop screaming every time we get a curve ball. Now's the time to grip that bat and swing back, HARD. I may be injured but you better believe I'm twice as strong as I was, at least mentally. So bring it on life. I've dusted myself off and I'm back in the game. Let's remember to look to our side and nudge the person next to us. Because the one who seems to have it all together may be struggling for air. Tell someone you need them today. Let them know that they are valued and wanted. Maybe this way we'll save a life and help then out of their ocean of anxiety. Thank you Amber. Thank you Halle. Thank you Tasha. Thank you Mom. Thank you Jean. You reached out and caught my hand when I was drowning. But especially thank you Jesus, You saved my life by dying for me and granting me eternal life.
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Hello amazing readers, I know, it's been a while. I've been going through a lot right now. Mainly depression from my recent injury. But we're also moving dorms this weekend and I just had my birthday so I've been a little busy. My birthday was amazing, I have so many great friends who love to spoil me, we all went out to Old Chicago for pizza. It's been hard being on crutches, let me tell you. I'm definitely still getting a workout in because crutches are horrible.
So the news with my foot: it's not getting any better so I have to see a specialist next week. Hopefully it will be better and I can cancel my appointment, but I'm not really holding my breath. God can heal me, I believe that 100%, but God also told me He wasn't going to work a miraculous healing this time. That's something difficult for me to understand. God doesn't want me to suffer right? Of course He doesn't want us to suffer. But there's a reason for everything. Maybe this specialist needs to hear about God. Maybe I needed to learn a lesson about receiving help. Maybe a combination of these is true. Maybe the nurse at the doctor's office needed her day brightened by a cheerful patient. Who knows? All I know is that it happened. There's a quote that I recall from my book which I love. "The past is the past, let it stay there." What happened happened, there's nothing I can do to change that. All I can do is pray and follow the doctor's orders. What pain are you living in right now? Do you think it's time to let the past stay in the past and move on? I'll be praying for you dear reader, because I know how hard it is to play the what if game. What if I hadn't gone to play soccer that evening? We'll never know and there's no point stressing over what could have been. Time to look to the future and I'll tell you mine looks bright. I'm working on self-publishing my book in a couple weeks so I'll be sure to keep you posted. |
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